When does life begin?

Flowers for the Dead. No funeral. No wake. No Memorial. Simply death of the living.
Flowers for the Dead. No funeral. No wake. No Memorial. Simply death of the living.
I died this year.
But I was never dead.
I passed into some strange history, old memories.
Yet I am still here.

My passing was sudden and unexpected.
But still, I am here this very moment, never having departed.
People have and are morning the loss of me.
I never left them all the time still standing before their eyes.

Yet I died this year.
Only months have passed.
I do not feel this loss of me.
I only feel the loss of others who let me go.

Now I am dead.
But my corpse does not decay.
Every moment breathing, heart beating, thoughts fleeting.
Is this what it is like to die?

I have watched them leave.
One by One.
I saw the signs of death.
Yet I could do nothing to stop it.

I am living with death each day.
I am invisible and forgotten.
But my eyes still see those who buried me.
My heart still feels the love I never gave up.

I died this year.
So when does life begin?

3 thoughts on “When does life begin?

  1. Your new life must begin with you. You are the only one who has control over the start of your new life in the new reality.

  2. Very good young lady, capture the reader I always say and you did that here. You are very much alive as the woman, your man self is gone but really he isn’t gone dear he will always be no matter what like my Shawn, the protector.
    Good writing, I really enjoyed it.

    Shauna
    xxoo

  3. I did not get the feeling of someone dying…I got the sense of someone being born or at least conceived. I’ve watched you be born during the last year and it has been a wonderout thing to behold. The Nikki I first came to know was so filled with doubt, fear and unhappiness. I think that was the dying. Then you came to life and began growing like a weed…smiling like never before because it’s just so good to know the right direction. I wish you the very best along the rocky path. :)Suzi

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