My Song

Younger than my age.
Not safe for work.
Articulate, sometimes.
Liberal, always.
I pulled a u-haul behind my jeep and I moved in, with myself.
BIG sailboats out of the sight of land.
Jeep in a Baja MX desert way out of sight of man.
Wreck diving the Philippines.
Sleeping bag under the stars in the bed of a good friend’s pickup.
The National Gallery all day long.
No words in my songs.
Oil paint on a white skirt.
Motor oil on everything but the engine I rebuilt.
Teddy bear named BooBoo in my bed.
Four pillows for my legs, arms and head.
Laughing until I cry.
A few more hours I almost died.
Best friend I met in Sweden.
West Coast you are my Eden.
The beach, ocean and stars above.
20 pounds lost after 20 years the same.
Labels do no justice to the person I am.
Two lives lived, I have loved lost and am…
Complex and confident.
I never kissed a man.
Accepting the variety of us all.
But my own worst enemy when I fall.
Not a Rose but an Orchid or maybe just star.
Falling from the skies, I am stardust as are we all.
Friend, daughter, aunt, cousin but never a mom.
I am an artist, musician, nerd and this is my song.

RAWR!

Attainable
Untamable
Creative
Investigative
Explore my mind to find
The woman behind these eyes
Independent
Fierce and Strong
No cage will hold me long
Set out
Upon the world
Forging my path
Nec Sorte Nec Fato
I am not just a thing of beauty
I’m not just a girl
Brains
Feelings
Memories and more
Not just human
With love never poor
Raw
Funny and fabulous
I am not like the rest of us
Like you
Like me
Like Her
Like the artist canvas
High upon the easel
I am many things
I am many people
Lesbian
Lover
Loud
Proud and a mother
Stand behind me
Stand before me
Stand with me
And never against me
Or I will mow you down
I am woman
Hear me RAWR!

Myself, My own

Finding my place
The race to be all of me
Soundly in line
Bold
Untamed
Unashamed
This life of mine

Edge the line crossed and left behind
Full of life and love to give
Hated
Despised
Criticized
I wont apologize
I am not an animal to be caged

Told do live in a box
Told to be a good girl
Don’t fuck with me
Society
Sobriety
You can’t kill the freedom to love

Take my life
You will never take my soul
I exist despite your rage
Your hate
Your cage
I live outside your pitiful book of rules

Art in my mind
The art of my self
Created
Unabated
My fire burns for all my sisters brothers and fools

Refuse
To be
Accept
I am free

Lover
Alive
Strive to be
The best damn women

No one’s cage
No one’s rule

I live outside the frame of societies tired game